I cannot for the life of me get this paper done. I have about 2 of the 10 pages that need to be turned in on Tuesday by five pm. I have changed my topic 3 times. I don't even know what to talk about and its driving me nuts. :( Really I've been trying to force myself to do this all weekend and I can't. I don't really have writers block, I just can't seem to keep myself on the same page and I keep skipping back and forth with ideas and topics. And to top that all off I've found it almost impossible to get sources to back my claims, so they probably aren't even valid. LIFE.
This weekend however has been quite nice. Tony and I got to spend a lot of time together and I just love him so much. I don't know what I would do without him because he is so wonderful and wow. I love that man. I can't wait till like Wednesday because my baben is going to come down and stay at the apartment for a while. These past few weeks we really haven't been home there a lot because I've had class and work and he's been working. And then on his day's off I've been coming home to help my family with various things. So it will be super nice to just get to spend time together. And I don't have class or anything to deal with! :) No responsibilities. FINALLY!
Well I suppose I will get back to this paper, hopefully I can pull some more shit out of my butt and then turn it in and pass the class. I'm taking it pass fail so I really don't care how I do, as long as I get a pass.
Later
-JRA
I'm so happy, today is the last day of summer term classes. I took my final for Anthropology this morning. It was so easy and almost a joke to take. I mean that whole class has been a joke. I can't even believe that it was a college level class. It felt like 7th grade science or something. Nothing about the class was hard or thought provoking. I guess taking engineering classes and math classes for 4 years has made me numb to anything that isn't math or engineering and it makes it easy. So sweet.
Tonight I have my last SOC class. I'm sort of sad about it. I really enjoyed that SOC class. It was fun, people were cool, everyone was eager to discuss whatever we were talking about(even me) and I really started to have a different view on society. But now its over and I'll probably never have a class where I constantly laugh for 2 hours straight and listen to crazy stories of people's intimate lives. Over all it was one of the most cognitively stimulating classes I've taken in college. I really never thought that I'd like the class. Especially from the first day, but I really did come to like it a lot, and now its all over. So one more night of fun and then I really need to buckle down and write my 10 page paper for the class. Its going to blow. But I suppose I don't care that much about the paper because I am taking the class pass/fail and I'm sure I'll do fine and pass the class, even without the paper probably, but I can't just not do it because it would make me feel lazy and like I failed myself in some way.
After class Tony and I are going to go back to Swartz Creek. I'm excited to get back there. See the puppy, help Ryann move to Allendale and then spend the rest of the weekend with my love. He wants to take me to see a movie on Saturday. "The Time Travelers Wife" It looks really good, but I'm pretty sure its going to be very sad. So I cant' wait to cry! haha.
I need to go gather my thoughts for my paper and start looking for some resources. Hopefully this doesn't take that long, I have to have 10 resources for this 10 page paper. SICK I will write later.
-JRA
I have a headache. I'm pretty sure its because I have done NOTHING today. I really feel alright besides that. Usually when I have a day like today, I feel all guilty about it because I didn't get anything accomplished. Well today I haven't gotten anything accomplished and I do not feel one bit ashamed about it. I'm actually happy that I didn't do much of anything today. :) I did watch some TV and laid around thinking about my paper that I have to write. However I haven't really started it, just thought about it. Perhaps I will start that tonight? Doubt it. I really need to get it done one of these days though. 10 pages is going to be pretty hard to pull out of my ass. :(
Tomorrow I'm pretty busy. I have class at 9 to 11, but I don't know if I'm going to go because its a review session. Every test we've taken in the class I've gotten far above average so I'm pretty sure I'm going to fine over all, and plus I really don't feel like this last test is going to be that hard. It does however have a pretty lengthy written essay that we have to do in class. Maybe I should put some thoughts down on paper about it. I mean seeing as the professor gave us the topic question a WEEK before the exam, I'm sure she's going to expect something sort of though out and not just thrown down when I get to class to take the test on Thursday.
See these are the things i COULD have done today, but I didn't and I don't really even feel bad about that. O well. I mean the day is pretty much over so I can't really get the time back.
I think I'm gonna go make some dinner, maybe that's why I have a headache.
later
-JRA
