Post Grad

Tony and I get the keys to our new apartment on Wednesday. I am sooo excited. I just can't wait to unpack everything, get settled and start living the life we've been dreaming about since the day I got a phone call saying YOU HAVE A JOB. Honestly every day since that day we've talked about what we're gonna do with our new place, how we are going to organize everything, and what we plan to do with our evenings together (most likely watching TV :) haha). So the anticipation has been killing us, we are so ready for this.

I don't think I've actually talked about this, but we were supposed to move in to our new place on Friday the 10th. Obviously that didn't happen. About a week and a half ago Tony go a phone call from the people we're renting the place from. They informed us that they were having a hard time getting our new place ready by the 10th. Since it wasn't going to be ready they offered us a bigger place, on the first floor and at the same price we would have been paying for the small place. Of course we accepted this. The only con about this option was that we aren't able to move in until the 15th. 5 days really hasn't felt that bad. I still don't have all my stuff packed and ready to move anyway. Procrastination has been getting me these past few days. :)

Tony and I got all of our furniture and a new mattress yesterday. I'm so excited to get everything situated. I can't wait to build the couch (we got it from ikea). It should be fun. I'm also so excited to get our bed set up and sleep on our new mattress! SOO excited.

Other than all this anticipation, life has been alright. Working and hanging out, that pretty much defines my life these days, and I'm totally okay with that. So okay with that. It was a little weird not going back to college this fall, even more weird because so many people I know did and all they talk about is "first day of class this" and "first day of class that". O well, I'm actually really happy that I don't have to go to class. I mean class was just stressful and ug. I'm glad that I've graduated. YAY

Well I suppose I should go get stuff packed and start to get laundry taken care of before the work week.

I'll write again when I get settled in my new place. :)
-JRA

Today was a good day. I got contacts FINALLY! I have been wanting to get them for a while now and I finally just went to the eye doctor and said I would like contacts. And boom I can see. It's actually really strange. I've been so used to just being able to see when I had my glasses on, and now I can just see with NO glasses, its weird. I don't really know how to explain it.

Also today I bought a Keurig Coffee Maker. It's SOOO cool. I have a weird addiction to any type of technology. If it plugs into a wall or takes batteries I pretty much LOVE it. (that's why I went into Electrical Engineering ) Anyway, It's so sweet. I want to drink like 29485 cups of coffee just to play with it. I got the reuseable cup too so that I can use any coffee in it. That's probably a good idea because those little cups might become a problem and might become something that I just don't feel like buying when I can buy a bag of coffee or something.

I don't know if I wrote since I bought my car. I got a 2008 Mustang. It's silver and wonderful. I honestly love it! Really. I never thought that I'd love a car, but I love this car. It's pretty and goes fast and is everything that I'd ever wanted. And since I was about 12 years old I wanted a Mustang. So now I have one and it's a wonderful feeling.

Tony and I started watching the first season of Mad Men last weekend. It's addictive and I love it. We are almost done with the first season so I've been looking around to buy the second season (and probably the 3rd too). It's so good.

I suppose that's about all I have to write about. Not a very exciting post. Sorry.

Oh Tony and I move into our new apartment in less than a month. I cannot wait!! :) And on Sept 4th we get to go see Billy Idol for free!! yay haha.

Later
-JRA

Well I know I haven't updated in a while. Every thing is just so busy these days. I really do need to start setting time aside to work on this blog and my parents website because I've really been slacking.

Biggest News: Tony and I signed for an apartment in Fenton. I am SO excited to move in. We also got a new bed from Ikea. I can't wait to put it together and have an actual bed, not just a bed frame.

As much as I'm going to miss college life, I'm not going to miss being so poor that all I can buy is Ramen and I have to sleep on an OLD nasty bed and have a bunch of broken and uncomfortable furniture. I'm so excited to be able to decorate and have decent things. I am by no means rich yet, but I do have some of the money that I've been anticipating. :)

I can't even describe to you how much it amazes me that weeks FLY by. I honestly feel like it was just Monday like a second ago. I suppose that is a good thing, but then when I think about it, it's like 5 days of my life go by so fast that I don't even realize they went by. I am scared that most of my life is going to go by like this and I won't even have time to sit, relax and enjoy things.

Work is going well. I think I'm really getting the hang of things. I feel like I am starting to understand the lingo and the different processes that everything has to go to. I'm also really adjusting to the Japanese way of doing business. It's not as fast paced as I'm used to and I like that I have ample time to think and prepare before I'm expected to present. It's a nice feeling.

Well I suppose that is an update of my life. This weekend and all of next week is devoted to finding me a car. One that I like AND that is reliable. It's going to be a hell of a search. :( haha.

So my life is going SOO fast, I feel like Monday starts and before I got to sleep it's already Friday. Not that I'm complaining that the work week goes by fast, I just can't believe that it does! Exciting.

Thursday was a pretty sweet day! Work went well. We had to go to Battle Creek all day for meetings and I had to see what was wrong with this wiper switch. So that took up the whole day. When I got home I decided that I was going to buy the computer I've been looking at and contemplating about. So I got it. I got a MacBook Pro. I know, I've NEVER been a Mac person. But I had good reasons, in college ALL the programs that I had to use were PC based programs that I couldn't run on a Mac, so I didn't spend the money and get a Mac. But now that I don't have to use all that software, I can have a mac for leisurely fun! haha

It's really nice and I"m still getting used to it, but for the most part it's pretty easy. I got a sweet green case for it too! :) Woo

Friday was long at work, but only because I was looking forward to getting out and playing with my computer and then going out for the night. After I got home I got ready to go out with Tony to his friend Corey's house. It was a successful night! :)

Saturday I felt pretty crappy all day. Dunno why? We mostly just hung out at my house and watched TV and played with out Macs. It's cool.

Now today was fun. I went to this consignment shop to look for some nice work shirts... ended up with 5 shirts, a wallet and a Coach Purse. SOO exciting.

So It's been a good weekend. Now I am getting pumped up for another work week. I have to give a presentation on Tuesday to Toyota Technical Center about a Rear HVAC part that my team is working on with the Switch Group. Should be interesting. I"m a little nervous, but sort of excited too.

I will write later.

Well I have started work and sort of got used to the situation. It's a lot to take in so quickly and everything is different that I thought it would be. I do enjoy it though. I mean I don't LOVE getting up early in the morning, but once I'm actually at work it's not that big of deal and I am learning quite a bit.

I can't wait to get an apartment closer to work though. I hate the hour+ drive that I do every day. It sucks a lot. And it makes me have to get up soooo early it's gross. I honestly have to go to bed at like 9:30 every night. (I'm 4 minutes late already).

I'm excited for the weekend so I can actually spend some time with Tony. I feel like I haven't seen him all week. It sucks. I mean I get home at like 7:15 every night, and if he comes over it's usually like 8:30 when he gets here and then by 10 I'm like dying to go to bed. It's rough.

It will be so different when we actually live together.

Well I'm going to get some sleep. I think I might get a new computer soon... AHHH I shouldn't but I want one so bad.

Also I need to find a car very very soon. I really want a mustang!! We'll see.

So I was reading my livejournal (remember those?!) from like 10th grade and I found this. I thought it was cute so I want to redo the entire survey(while leaving my old answers) so you can meet the angsty 16 year old Jordan as well as the me you know now. So sit back and get ready for some laughs.


New answers are bolded.

Kindergarten
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Fraser
Who was your best friend: Ashely Thomas (my mom baby sat her. I wasn't really friends with anyone in my class)
Who did you have a crush on: hmm..I dont really think I had one.
Something random: I never wanted to do my work and I always got in trouble and had to sit in time out because I made fun of the kids around me. I was a mean child.

First Grade
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Gilbert
Who was your best friend: Amber Ferguson *werid that were now related*
Who did you have a crush on: Andy something.. and this Chad kid that moved.
Something random: Well I dont really remember first grade. Cept that we had to do reading in small groups and Amber was in my group.. weird.

Second Grade
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Cruz
Who was your best friend: Amber Ferguson
Who did you have a crush on: Tyler Waugh
Something random: I had to sit in the corner a lot b/c I talked too much and Didn't get my work done. Amber and I would randomly get in fights... like physical fights. lol.

(I was in second grade twice b/c I wasn't "mature" enough for 3rd grade. I am extremely happy that I got held back b/c Look how damn smart I am now.. haha)
Second Grade
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Hernandez
Who was your best friend: Tiffany Ortiz
Who did you have a crush on: Aaron Jeffery and Robby Metcalf
Something random: During recess my "group" would always swing on the swings and yell at each other b/c we were in each others "showers"

Third Grade
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Beckman
Who was your best friend: Tiffany Ortiz, Taryn Ferris, Ashley Hamilton
Who did you have a crush: Tony Tenerelli(he goes by nick now), Aaron Jeffery
Something random: Tony was my first boyfriend. He was so sweet. lol. And then I started to like Aaron J again b/c we had to work together to make Lego Robots. I also got all a's. I think this is when I found out that I was smart. I got chicken pox right after spring break which extended my break by like another 6 or 7 days. I was sooo sick.

Fourth Grade
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Hyldahl
Who was your best friend: Taryn Ferris
Who did you have a crush on: Mike Bright
Something random: Everyone was running for student council, they had made signs and stuff. I decided ten minutes before I had to make the speech that I was gonna run. I made my speech and was picked. Mike Bright was the other one picked. Nicole Grant thought I should date mike bright so we went out. It was an awesome year. My second Favorite. I also remember the summer after 4th grade my family went on this huge canoe trip with Taryn's family and Mike's family. I was so exited that my boyfriend was camping with me. I am pretty sure this is the year that I started writing stories and sort of keeping a journal.

Fifth Grade
Who was your teacher: Mr. Thorne
Who was your best friend: Taryn Ferris.
Who did you have a crush on: Mike Bright, and at the end Aaron Jeffery.
Something random: Wonderful Year. Didn't learn much. Played outside a lot. During recess we would hid in the corner and play truth or dare. It was also the year that Joey had his Halloween party and we all played spin the bottle. Tony Tenerelli was my first kiss on the lips. And Mike and I broke up after like a year b/c Aaron Jeffery lived down the street and stuff got hot and heavy(kissing!) I got my name on this plaque because I got all a's for all of elementary school. I was so excited. I believe this is when I started to get a big head about being "smart". I was so scared when 5th grade ended because I had to go to middle school... scary!

Sixth Grade
Who were your teachers: Mrs. Corbat, Mrs. Gary(sorta), Mr. Hockin, Ms. Conlen, Mrs. Chiano
Who was your best friend: Krystal Harlow
Who did you have a crush on: Ben Plum, Danny Carpenter and Todd Alvies(sp?)
Something random: I was such a dork in 6th grade. But I was cool? I went out with Ben the day I met him. Lol. Danny Carpenter and I both took bathroom breaks so that he could kiss me. awe. I started keeping a daily journal in december of 6th grade. I also remember in math I was able to solve algebra problems and my math teacher was stunned. I met Mallory this year and we had a lot of fun together both at church and in science class. I danced with a boy for the first time at a "fun night". It was Brian McDounough. Who would have known that I would be engaged to his best friend? haha Over all it was a very fun and interesting year.

Seventh Grade
Who were your teachers: Mrs Barta/Mrs Tally (Maternity leave sub), Mr. Dutcher, Ms. Hendrick, Mrs. Loucks/Mr Lindsay (Maternity Leave sub) Gym teachers and stuff
Who was your best friend: Krystal Harlow
Who did you have a crush on: Tony Simpson, Brad Cutter, Todd Alvies, Ben at the end of the year
Something random: Really strange year. I played Basketball? Mr. Linsday was the DUMBEST person on the face of the earth. Mal, Jac, Steph and I started to get closer. The FIGHT between all the girls! I can't remember what the FIGHT between all the girls was, but back in 2004 it still must have had a place in my memory. I don't really remember much of 7th grade. Honestly it was the least memorable year of middle school. I do think that I fell in love with Ben Plum at the end of the year. I got my first real kiss too. In my basement with Ben. We were watching Sleepy Hallow. Oh yeah I went to Cedar Point for the first time too. I guess it was a pretty dec year!

Eighth Grade
Who were your teachers: Mr. Croel, Mrs. Gutterage/Mr. T(maternity leave sub), Mrs Bush, Mrs Olsen, Mrs Silpoch/Mr. Tatroe(maternity leave sub)
Who was your best friend: Erin Lynch and Becca Look
Who did you have a crush on: Tony Simpson, Rick Sheill(even tho I would not admit it)
Something random: The year I fell in love. Our last year at middle school. Just a really great year! I fell in love with Tony Simpson. I never fell out of love with him and now I'm engaged to him. It was honestly the best year of middle school. I went to 8th grade formal with Tony. It was the first time a boy had given me flowers. I really feel like I remember every detail of 8th grade. It must have been a very important year in my development. 8th grade still give me a smile on my face.

Ninth Grade
Who were your teachers: Mrs Cerano, Mrs. Stratton, Mrs Hoyt, Mr Legetko, Mr Bierman, Mrs. Pavkovich, Mr. Geister
Best Friends: Becca Look, Mallory Brown, Stephany Lay, Jaclyn Garrison
Who did you have a crush on: Tony Simpson and Tony Gruner.
Something random: I went out with Tony b/c he was older. I didn't know him. I threw away the best thing that ever happened to me. Not a fun year. But I had a WONDERFUL time with my bestest friends in the entire world. FIRST YEAR OF VARSITY SWIMMING! AH! the first year I had to spend with out rick. I think that I learned a lot in 9th grade. I learned that I could make mistakes. I used to think it was like the worst thing that I ever did when I broke up with Tony Simpson, but now looking back it was probably good that I did that so that I could realize that the other fish in the sea aren't worth it.

Tenth Grade
Who were your teachers: Mrs. Husted, Mr. Kreutzfeldt, Mrs. Ziemer, Mr. Wiens, Mrs. Pavkovich, Mrs Stratton.
Best Friends: Mallory Brown, Jaclyn Garrison, Becca Look, Stephany Lay, and Rick
Who did you have a crush on: Rick Sheill<3
Something random: I attended my first high school dance with Rick(even tho he goes to walled lake). I fell in love again. Lost a few things, and gained a few things. became SUPER good friends with the whole group and were tight.. no one is allowed in. haha (i think were sorta cliqueish??) Got good grades! lol. 10th grade was weird. I had a huge crush on Rick even though he didn't go to Swartz Creek any more. It was a good first experience in long distance relationships. The Summer after 10th grade was amazing. We had all got our drivers licenses. We were on the road alone and did a lot of STUPID things. I was probably in love with Robb Anthony but I was sooo stubborn. He was so good to me and I was horrid to him... haha Good summer. I also never told David Almassy how much I longed to be his girlfriend. But by the close of summer I was smitten with Tony Simpson yet again... :)

****not there yet!****
Eleventh Grade
Favorite Class: AP Chemistry and as always Math
Who were your teachers: Mrs. Ziemer, Mrs. Pavkovitch, Mrs. Boros, Mr. Weins, Mr. Lang, Mr. Bierman
Best Friends:Jaclyn, Mallory, Stephanie, Becca, Tony and Eric.
Who did you have a crush on: Tony Simpson
Something random: Tony Simpson told me he was in love with me. Becca and Eric were dating so it was always the 4 of us. We did everything together and had such a wonderful time. I think 11th grade was my favorite year of High School. We all had cars, money and lives. School was hard this year. I took an AP class and took the test. The Summer after 11th grade I went to an engineering camp at Michigan Tech. I thought I wanted to go there until I toured the University of Michigan... that's when I knew where I'd spend my college years.. Ann Arbor.

Twelfth Grade
Who were your teachers:Mr. Butters, Mr. Lang, Mrs Attwood, Mrs. Vredevogde, Mrs. Bennett
Best Friends:Tony, Becca, Mal, Steph, Jac
Who did you have a crush on:I was in love with Tony Simpson
Something random: Senior year was rough. I was so nervous about hearing back from all the college I applied to. I was so excited when I got into Michigan. Then I began to get worried about leaving Tony when I went off to college. I had a lot of scares. It was a long year. I was so excited to graduate and move on, yet I was so scared to leave my comfort zone and do COLLEGE. I honestly don't remember a lot of senior year because I think I worried it away. That is something that I would definetly go back and change. Senior Prom was so fun though. I just remember feeling like the night was perfect. And then when we went camping for the weekend it was a lot of fun. I held a part time job all of my senior year. It supplied me with a lot of new real world experiences. :)

F I R S T:
First job: I haven't really had one McDonalds... OMG McDonalds... haha
First screen name: J13SC
First funeral: My Grandpa
First pet: Max the cat Max wasn't really MY cat. I would say that my first pet was Teala... and I still have her. She is a cranky old woman now.
First piercing/tattoo: my ears I got my first Tattoo during my freshman year of college. It's an infinity symbol on my back between my shoulders. It didn't hurt :-) And it's represents my love of math. Tony got his first tattoo that night as well
First credit card: no I got my first Credit card my freshman year of college. I used it to buy a better computer. But that's all i've actually used it for. Actually I think the first thing I bought was the dvd Tommy. :)
First real kiss: In my basement in seventh grade with ben. lol.. It was cute! :)
First real love: Tony Simpson Actually looking back I think that Ben was my first love. But Tony was definetly my TRUE love... I don't know how life would be without him. I don't really want to find out. I love him! :)
First enemy: eh.. i dont really have enemies. waist of life I still feel this way about having enemies. I don't have any enemies. Well except anyone from Ohio State. haha
First favorite musician: Mike Herrera Probably MxPx in general.

L A S T S:
Last car ride: Came home from swim practice. I just came back from shopping with Tony.
Last kiss: Haha.. On my roof with Rick. We were watchen stars. Tony kissed me goodbye when he left to get ready for the cookout we're going to.
Last library book checked out: last month.. it was called We need to talk about Kevin I have some checked out on my Nook. I don't remember their names.
Last movie watched: The Princess Diaries Two Tony and I watched Anchorman last night.
Last beverage drank: Water This Mango Coconut smoothie from Starbucks. Yum
Last food consumed: ICE CREAM! Some pasta salad that my mom made.

1.What's the worst movie you've ever seen? Napolian Dynomite, but it did make me laugh Cloverfield. YUCK and boring
2.What's the worst song you've ever heard? haha Stupid Hilary Duff that can't sing. ne thing she sings. Nirvana in general
3.If you could kill any celebrity, who would it be? Hillary Duff.!!!!!! haha I'd probably still go with this answer of Hilary Duff.
4.who's the worst band in the world? Good Charlote(sp?) Nirvana
5.Who is your arch enemy? Again... I haven't one. Ohio State
6.What is your least favorite food? alivacado I like Alvacado now, I don't like tomatoes anymore.
7.what happened on the worst day of your life? i dont know.. haven't had it yet. I don't think I've had the worst day of my life.
8.What's the worst job you've ever had? ne form of babysitting Still very true. I hated babysitting.
9.who's your least favorite relative? dont have one. I don't know.
10.worst sex you ever had? hahahaha None?
11.what's the worst way to die? suffication Or burning to death. Pretty much any death that involves suffering.
12.what do you think hell would be like? the worst possible thing you could ever imagin times like 10 million.. and fire Fire! haha
13.if you could murder somebody and get away with it, who would it be? Hillary Duff haha I don't know
14.how would you commit this murder? I dont know. I have never thought of how I was going to murder someone. I think that's a little extreme
15.worst book you've ever read? The Scarlet Letter. It was boring. No action or ne thing Probably The Scarlet Letter or To Kill a Mocking Bird. BORING
16.worst tv show ever? haha.. reality shows I like reality shows every now and then. I hate Judge Judy.
17.what's the meanest thing you've ever done? no idea. Still Don't know?
18.what's the most brutal way you've ever snubbed an ex? eh... i dont know. Pretended I had no idea who they were a few years down the road.
19.what do you hate most about your personality? I talk too much i think. Sometimes I'm a little shy and get worried too easily
20.what do you hate most about your physical appearance? my fattness ha < b>OMG what'd I'd give to be the size I was when I first took this survey. I still don't like my size
Last time showered: an hour ago. This morning.
Last CD played: Franz Ferdinand I don't play CD's any more. Last thing I listened to was Green Day.
Last website visited: livejournal.com www.facebook.com I can't even image what High school would have been like if we would have had facebook... haha oh no.
Last person you talked to: Mom.. as she YELLED at me b/c my room wasn't clean. Tony when we were in the car.
Last time you said "I love you" and meant it: a while ago. when rick and i called it quits. Today when I saw Tony. I love him so much

N O W:
Single or Taken: Single.. not really looking tho. TAKEN
Birthday: September 27th 1987.... soon!! presents. Still the same date, but not THAT soon.
Siblings: 2 sisters
Hair color: brown.
Eye color: green
Height: 5'4 I've never been 5'4 in my life.. I'm probably JUST 5'3

Right now what are you...:
Wearing: sweat pants and a tie die shirt. Shorts and a Shirt.
Listening to: My mother bitch and complain that I dont keep my room clean.. screw her. My mom is talking on the phone with Sally
Thinking about: how much my head hurts. Getting ready for the cookout and my first day of work Tomorrow... nerves
Wishing for: my mom to leave! and to have a wonderful swim season. My first Pay Check... haha
What else are you wishing for: A HOT GUY Getting a nice place in Ann Arbor and buying a sweet ass car.

MORE ABOUT ME
1. What is your favorite Girl Scout cookie? Thin Mints Still Thin Mints! Yum
2) Do you prefer small town life or big city life? small town Medium Sized Town
3) The Cure's "Boys don't cry" or "Just like Heaven"? neither? Just Like Heaven I suppose
4) Violent femmes or Sex Pistols? Sex Pistols! Still the Sex Pistols. No questions asked.
5) Reese's Peanut Butter Cups or Pieces? UGG.. peanut butter is foul. I sort of like a Peanut Butter cup every now and then. I don't LOVE peanut butter still.
6) Morning sex or drunk sex? Morning.. Morning I suppose
7) Jenna Jamison or Belladonna? eh.. I don't know?
8) Britney or Christina? neither... christina can sing tho Neither still
9) Where were you born? FLINT TOWN.. as if i'm proud of that. Flint, Michigan and now I AM proud of that! :)
10) Pirates or zombies? Pirates Zombies!! haha
11) Hardcore or emo? Hardcore... but sometimes emo guys are hot. Neither, ew
12) Dodge ball or red light greenlight? Red Light Green Light. i was the master at that. I still like Red LIght Green Light
13) Did you get spanked when you were a kid? no I think I got spanked ONCE.
14) Do you get spanked now (sexually)? no. No weird.
15) Do you like it? wouldnt know. Probably not.
16) Where do you hope to be in 5 years? Senior Year at Kettering with a Wonderful coop job... getting paided and hopefully found a suitable boyfriend. haha this one cracks me up. I couldn't have been further from the truth. Five years from when I took this was like my junior year of college. I went to the University of Michigan, I had no idea where I was going to work after I graduated, but I did have a very suitable boyfriend (well he became my fiance that year ! ). Five years from now I hope to be happily married living in Ann Arbor doing well at my job. :)
17) Do you believe in love? Ofcourse. I believe Love is what we were put on earth to do :) It's wonderful
18) Do you believe in witchcraft? no. I don't think so.
19) Explain a holiday memory? Last Christmas we were all at my house for christmas eve. My cousin looks out the window and was like santa is coming. We thought it was my other cousin b/c he wasn't here. It turnes out that this santa guy had come to the wrong house. It was hillarous. We got pictures taken wiht him and everything. And then i think we gave him some money b/c he was SOO embarassed. Priceless time! haha this was hilarious. Still probably one of my best holiday memories.
20) If you could be a virgin again would you? well...haha I should have said I WAS a virgin back in the day not well... and no
21) Would you ever consider being openly sexual with someone of the same sex? I highly doubt it. No
22) Type some of the lyrics of one of your favorite songs? " you are the latest contender. You are the one to remember. You are the villan that sends her line of dark fantastic passion. I know that you will surrend. I want this fantasit passion. You can feel my lips undress your eyes. Undress your eyes. Words of love and words so leasured words are posioned darts of pleasure." "Now I cannot speak. I've lost my voice. I'm speechless and redundant cause I Love you is not enough. I'm lost for words."
23) Do you sleep with a teddy bear or a blankie? when i was younger i did. I have a build a bear Tony got me. I love it. :) He sleeps in my bed with me.
24) Do you believe long distance relationships would work? It did for me. It was a wonderful one too.. I loved him! I had a long distance relationship for 4 years and although it was hard, it worked and I couldn't have been happier. I love that boy so much! I'm so glad the long distance part is over.
25) Have you ever dated some one off of my space/ friendster? no NO!
26)How many people? - ZERO
27) What's more important: money, friendship, power or love? love and friendship Still believe Love it the most important thing in life.
28) Would you sleep with someone on the first date? ugg. i'm not a ho. Never
29) How do you like your grilled cheese sandwiches? Grilled? lol. Can't eat them anymore, Lactose Intolerant
30) What do you listen to when your heart is broken? nothing.. Angry Music
31) Do you believe trust is earned, or do you think everyone gets a shot? earned i guess. I believe that I usually give everyone a shot, and if they screw it up then it has to be VERY SLOWLY earned back.
32) What do you mix your vodka with? nothing.... i dont really drink.. Coke or Sprite
33) What was your favorite Saturday morning cartoon? RECESS! Still Recess! haha
34) Did you ever watch kids incorporated? no.
35) What is your favorite John Hughes film? no idea
36) What did you think of House of 1000 corpses by Rob Zombie? eh...sorta dumb.
37) What do you do for work? nothing yet I'm an Electronics Engineer! I make sweet car electronics! :)
38) What is your dream job? mechanical engineer.. but i wanna design cars.. so maybe i'll work my way up. Well I was pretty close. I'm an engineer and I work with cars, but not designing them and I'm totally an Electrical engineer! ha! :)
39)Who is your favorite Peanuts Gang Character? Pig Pen and Schroeder same
40) Broken hearts or a broken aim? broken aim
41) Clubs or bars? Clubs? Bars!! Clubs are too loud
42) Whats the best show you've ever been to? like play show? FAME Grease
43) Do you have a crush? Sorta... a bad one. I think it's more then a crush! It's LOVE
44) Who were you in high school? i am still in high school and i'm me! I was a smart kid... mostly just myself thought
45) Do you believe in astrology? not really No
46) Do you believe in angels? yes I suppose
47) Do you believe in ghosts? i dont know.. never seen one. Yes
49) Don't lie: do you like bon Jovi's album- slippery when wet? not a fan of it. No I don't like it and I'm telling the truth
50) What is your biggest "issue" right now? going to retarded meet the team tomorrow.. and my retarded crush that needs to go away. Finding a car to buy and a place to live. Moving out of my parents house. Starting a job... omg sooo much stuff is happening so soon.

SOCIAL LIFE:
01. Best Friends: Jaclyn, Steph, Mallory, becca. Tony's my bestfriend. But I'm still close with Jac, Steph, Mal and Becca.
02. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: none.Tony Simpson
03. Current Crush: ... umm... Tony Simpson
04. Hobbies: Swimming, Sleeping, Writing.Writing, Reading, Technology
05. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: 99 Mercury Cougar till my dad decides i have to drive the truck. I'm still driving the Cougar! :) Hoping to be getting a mustang soon.. :)
06. Redeeming qualities: ...? I'm not sure
08. Are You Timely Or Always Late: Timely to like school and stuff that i have to be there at a certain time. But parties and stuff.. I show up fasionably late. its better.. i can make an entrence. I've become very timely
09. Do You Have A Job: no dont have time. Yep. I'm an Electronics Engineering for TRAM
10. Do You Like Being Around People: Usually Depends on the people

STUFF:
11. have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: I never LOVED them.. i thought they were mega hot tho.Can't say I've LOVED someone that I wasn't dating
12. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: I think probably. Yes. I don't think you could go through life without this happening.
13. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: yeah i think i do.. sorta. His name was always Tony Simpson! :)
14. Do you want someone you don't have right now: sorta.. not really tho. Nope
15. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: yes i have.Yep a few times actually
16. Are You Lonely Right Now: no i have so much going on.. i dont have time to be lonely. No. I can't wait to move in with Tony though! :)
17. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: na Not at all.
18. Do You Want To Get Married: yeah. in time. In a year or so.
19. Do you want kids: maybe.. I'm leaning more and more towards no... it's sad but I just don't think I could do that.

FAVORITE:
20. Room In house: bedroom. probably still my bedroom
21. Type of music: rock and roll... classic rock... whatever the hell franz ferdinand is... um.. whatever i feel the need to listen to. Right now I am on an industrial kick.
22. Song: Darts of Pleasure by Franz Ferdinand. Closer by Nine Inch Nails
23. Memory: Tony Simpson probably the Spring of 8th Grade or graduating from college
24. Day Of The Week: Saturday Sunday usually
26. Perfume or cologne: LiLu Lucky
28. Month: September I still LOVE September :)
29. Season: Fall Without a doubt Fall. I hate Summer
30. Place to be kissed: Lips ... neck sometime.. if im in the mood. Lips! :)
31. Location for dates: a fun sorta place. Movies at people houses.. 4way date! haha I really enjoy going out to the bar and hanging out with friends, but I also really love a night in with some Netflix! :)

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
32. Cried: nah Not that I can remember
33. Bought Something: gas Yeah I got a new planner and a fm transmitter for my ipod.
34. Gotten Sick: yeah dude.. from friggen paint fumes at swimming. Nope!
35. Sang: no Yeah a long to some songs in the car with Tone tone
36. Said I Love You: to my sister. haha. Yes I told Tony I loved him this morning
37. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, but didn't: no Nope.
38. Met Someone New: yeah about like 50.. all the new girls at swimming No, but tomorrow I'm gonna be meeting some new people for sure.
39. Moved On: not in the past 2 days. Nope.
40. Talked To Someone: uhh... YEAH Yeah I've talked to my family and Tony.
41. Had A Serious Talk: not really! Not in the past two days.
42. Missed Someone: I miss Jaclyn and Steph b/c I haven't seen them in forever. I miss my girls because I feel like I haven't seen them in forever. And I miss my college friends that live all over the country now. :(
43. Hugged Someone: Parentals/family I hugged Tony
44. Kissed Someone: no... I also kissed Tony
45. Fought With Your Parents: argued with my mom. Eh, It's been a while since I've fought with my parents.
46. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: probably.. like Michael Phelps O god is he hot. Not that I can remember.
47. Had a lot of sleep: no... i should be napping. Yeah I slept for like 9 hours last night. I was tired

GETTING PERSONAL:
48. What do you want to be when you grow up? a engineer Well I'm an engineer now! :) Always did know what I wanted to be and now I'm it
49. What was the worst day(s) of your life? eh... exam days. Final Exams... yuck.
50. What has been the best day of your life? September 27th 1987 *if it hadn't be for that day... i wouldnt' have a life.. so obviously its the best.* When I got my job offer!
51. What comes first in your life? Friends. Family
52. Do you have a boyfriend, girlfriend? NO YES!
53. What are you most scared of? death, sickness Still Death! YIKES
54. Who is your funniest friend? ha.. i think they are all funny.. Davids hillarous tho All my friends are funny, that's why I like them

MORE FAVORITES:
55. Movie: ... tons upon tons upon tons I don't think I have a favorite movie..
56. Band/Group: Iron Maiden and Franz Feridnand. (quite the difference there) Green Day. Always and forever it will be Green Day
57. Store: Kohls and Target Target
58. Relative: Humm... Amber! Probably still Amber since we are closet in age
59. Sport: SWIMMING
60. Ice Cream Flavor: Mint Chocolate Chip
61. Fruit: Strawberry
62. Car: MUSTANGS! I can't believe that I'm going to be getting one!! OMG
63. Name for a Girl: i dont know.
64. Name for a Boy: i dont know

HAVE YOU EVER:
65. Been dumped? yep
66. Dumped Someone? yep
67. Had someone be unfaithful to you? no
68. Hiked a mountain? no
69. Seen the White house? yes That was a lie, i've never seen the white house.. cept on tv
70. Seen the Eiffel tower? not in real life.
71. Tried smoking? nope Once and it was sickkkkk
72. Played monopoly? o yes.. hours on end with my sister. I love me some monopoly
73. Seen Titanic? Ofcourse
74. Kissed someone? Yep i have
75. Tried a weight loss program? No.. I did the whole go to the gym all the time thing, it didn't do anything for me. :(
76. Jumped on a trampoline? yep
77. Visited another country? Canada
78. Colored in a coloring book (and had fun)? i love coloring.
79. Been on a plane? yeah when I was little.. i dont remember it. I just got back from a trip on a plane to Florida. It was cool!
80. Been on a boat? yes many a time.
81. Been on a train? haha only at like amusment parks and what not.. not a real one.
82. Been in a car accident? i think when i was a small child..nothing major.
83. Ridden an elephant? yeah at the circus
84. Made a web page? yep I have done a LOT of webpages! :)
85. Played with Barbies? when i was small.
86. Shoved stuff under your bed to make your room look cleaner? haha who hasn't done this.
87. Broken a bone? a finger or two maybe
88. Call a psychic or sex hotline? lol i dont think i have. I'm almost positive I never have haha
89. Watched Jerry Springer? Omg.. jerry springer.. funny show
90. Gotten in trouble for talking in class? so many times. I really believe this is the only thing I ever got in trouble for.
91. Gotten caught passing notes in class? eh.. i think probably yes.
92. Been afraid of the dark? no
93. Been in the hospital (not visiting)? not that i know of.
94. Had stitches? no.
95. Dumped someone and regretted it? yes.... :( But now that I look back, I don't regret it because it made me realize a lot.
96. Went out with more than one person at a time? haha.. no?
97. Been arrested? not
98. Fallen asleep in class? too many times to count
99. Used food for something other than to eat? like macaroni and stuff for projects
100. Ever Thrown food? um.. yeah.
101. Met a celebrity? maybe... not a well known one if i did... I met Krisite Alley last week! awesome
102. Ever loved someone so much it made you cry? i think YES
103. Hated yourself? at times.
104. Been brokenhearted? uh hu
105. Broken someones heart? maybe.. dunno

DO YOU:
106. Like to walk in the rain? omgosh rain is wonderful. It gets old when you have no other choice but to walk in the rain going to class.
107. Sleep with or without clothes on? with.
108. Prefer black or blue pens? i like black, but sometimes i get bored of it so i write in blue. and then when i get bored of that i switch.. its a on going process I like black the best.
110. Like to travel? sorta. Yeah its fun
111. Like someone? haha.. yeah.. I love someone.
112. Do they know? probably He knows! :)
113. Sleep on your side? no.. stomach or back. sometimes I sleep on my side, but usually my stomach.
114. Think your attractive? some days... not usually eh
115. Want to get married? in time. YES
116. Who? if i knew it woudlnt be as fun . Tony Simpson
117. Alaska or Hawaii?: Alaska
118. Are you a good student?: sure am I was a very good student.
119. Are you currently in a relationship?: no for the 1000th time. Yes with Tony Simpson! He's perfect
120. Are you involved in sports: Yes i am I was in high school not so much anymore
121. Birthplace: Flint...
122. Christmas or Halloween?: Christmas
123. Color or black-and-white photos?: depends on the photo.
124. Do long distance relationships work?: yes they can If you make them work they work. Mine worked just fine.
125. Do you believe in astrology: i guess not
126. Do you believe in God?: yes i do Eh???
127. Do you believe in love at first sight?: no not really Attraction at first sight, but not LOVE
128. Do you consider yourself the life of the party? um... depends on the party Not always.
129. Do you drink?: negative Not like a sailor.
130. Do you have a car?: yes i do I do not OWN my own car. I have a car that my parents own that I use.
131. Do you have a job?: no i dont! Yes I do! So excited to start too! :)
132. Do you make fun of people?: i think sometimes Eh, not so they know.
133. Do you think dreams eventually come true: if they are feasible Yes.

ETC
134. Fave thing to do?: swim and hang out with friends. shop
135. Fave breakfast food? toast Fruit
136. Fave Candy?: mnms Peanut M&m's
137. Favorite vacationing spot: i like to move around and see new things. someplace where it's like 70 all the time.
138. Favorite body part of the opposite sex?: defintely the penis.... i'm kidding. smile gota have a wonderful smile. Smile and eyes.
139. Favorite cartoon? The Simpsons
140. Go to the movies or rent?: rent.. i like laying down.. haha L A Z Y NetFLIX!!
141. Have you ever moved?: 3 times. So many times. Once a year for like 4 years.. yikes.
142. Have you ever stolen anything (from a store)?: i think gum when i was in like 3rd grade.
143. How's the weather right now?: over cast EXTREMELY hot and sunny.
144. Hug or kiss?: depends on the giver
145. Last person you talked to on the phone?: some person that had the wrong number. Tony
146. Last time you showered?: after practice. This morning
147. Loud or soft music?: loud
148. McDonalds or Burger King?: Burger King McDonalds
149. More romantic; baths or shower?: baths.
150. Night or Day: Night usually
151. Number of Pillows?: one Two now
152. Piano or guitar?: guitar
153. Read or write?: write
154. Single or taken?: single.. taken is fun too tho Taken
155. Snow or water?: water
156. What are you doing tomorrow?: swim practice and meet the friggen team. Starting my job!
157. What clothes are you wearing?: pants and a shirt. Shirt and shorts.
158. What do you drink?: water and juice
159. What makes you vomit?: oo... a ton of stuff.. nerves
160. What's on your computer screen?: Michael Phelps Vacuum Tubes
161. What's right next to you?: My cat! <3 awe Nothing
162. What's your bedtime?: when i get tired. Like 1 am
163. What's your best physical feature?: umm... dunno.. you tell me Probably my eyes
164. Whats your name backwards? Nadroj.. haha say that. haha smada is my last name
165. When do you get up in the morning?: quater to eight like 10 am
166. Who do you talk to the most online? I have my away message up quite alot,, but ne one who talks. I don't really talk on aim any more... facebook chat once in a while but that's about it. I text now.
167. Would you wait to have sex until you are married?: yeah i guess. no ha

WHO DO YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU HEAR THESE NAMES
168. Shawn/Sean: awe shawn... Shawn Lewis.
170. Pat: ives same
171. Bobby: Bradford :-/ Nothing comes to mind.
178. Jessica: simpson
179. Elizabeth: my sisters middle name

AND FINALLY:
180. Is this survey too long? i think its the longest one i've ever done. Definitely the longest survey ever! :)



So after doing all of that I guess I haven't changed that much, but then again I have. It was cute to do all of that. :) haha.

Later

I start work tomorrow. I will let you all know how that goes.

We got back from Florida on Wednesday night. As fun as the vacation was, I was happy to be home and get back to all my routines and things. Overall the vacation was a ton of fun and I'm so glad that we had the opportunity to do it! :)

Here are some pictures from the rest of our trip:

Neat fountain at the Sandpearl Resort.


This was the view from our room.


Here's a pirate ship we saw! :)


These birds made me laugh.


All of the "kids" at dinner.


Cool looking clouds


Beach Sunset. SO pretty


Dinner for the last night


My first time having Gelato.. YUM


Night on the beach.


It was a great trip. Now I am just getting ready for the holiday weekend. Then on Tuesday I will be starting my job!! Exciting!!

I have made it to Clearwater Beach Florida safely on a jet plane (my first time). It was pretty fun. I really enjoyed sitting by the window and watching everything get tiny as we made our way up into the sky. I enjoy landing SOO much more though. For one, the I am excited that the flight is almost over and we have made it in one piece, and it just feels cool. haha. I've always loved that feeling of almost falling though. Like on roller coasters and when you have falling dreams. Favorite.

So for the most part out flight was good. We were held up in the plane at the Flint airport because a check oil light was on and they had to fix the problem. That delayed us an hour so our connection in Atlanta was delayed and we ended up missing out connection flight and had to wait for the next one. That was only an hour later. So we made it to Florida by noon. It was nice.

We are staying at the Sandpearl Resort. Apparently it's the nicest one in the area. My mom's friend Corinn is so generous and just loves having us here. I love it too. It's super hot and humid. The heat index today has been about 110. WOW! The water is very warm and the beach is beautiful. I love how white the sand is. I match the beach haha and I'm easy to spot because everyone else is tanned.

Over all we've just been relaxing and doing our thing. I have yet to find the sunglasses I want and it's sorta driving me nuts because I need some. I want a knock off designer ones, but I just haven't found a store that sells them. All the stores sell the REAL designer ones and there is no way I am going to spend like 200 bucks(or more) on sunglasses.

Well I am going to go enjoy the rest of the day here. I will try to update with more pictures and such before we leave. I'll leave you with a few.


Me riding a plane for the first time.


My view from the plane. It was sorta neat to watch the wing when we landed.


A sweet looking fountain at the resort.


Our room is in the very middle on the fifth floor. RIght above the one with the little person standing on the balcony.


This is the pool. It's pretty neat.


One of my beautiful sisters! :)


My wonderful parents.



PS. I can't believe I start work in a little more than a week!! AHH

Well, I have some amazing news for you all. As you've probably been reading, I have been interviewing for a job with TRAM, Inc. Everything has really been going well and over the last month I have really been anticipating news. So on Thursday I was laying around the house feeling like a slob and my phone rings. I look at the number and recognize that it's TRAM. It was ten to 5 and I was expecting bad news since it was the end of the day. They probably just wanted to get it over with.

I answered the phone and the HR person was super excited. "Good News" were the first words out of the guys mouth. Then they offered me the job. I was so excited!! I honestly couldn't believe that I got the job after I had hung up from talking. I told my mom and she was like screaming. Then we proceeded to call almost everyone we knew to tell them. Everyone was excited and kept saying they knew I was gonna get the job and things like that. I had no idea that I was going to get the job and I was really trying to set myself up for a rejection.

BUT NOW I HAVE A JOB!!!

So that was wonderful news. :)

Yesterday was a fun day. Hung out with the girls at Mal's brother's open house. Becca got a job too. We were so excited because we are now real people. It's so exciting.

Becca, Tony, and I went out to this bar and grill with a few of her friends from school. It was a lot of fun but I was really really tired because I had stayed up till like 5 the last night seeing Toy Story 3 at midnight. But I was running on a lot of adrenaline. It was an overall great night.


So some sad news, since I am becoming a real person I believe that I am going to start a new blog. I feel like this chapter of my "college years" have now come to a close and I need a new start. So I am going to start to design a new blog for my "real life" and I will be sure to give you the link to that blog so you can keep up with my extremely exciting life.

Until then, take care.

I had a hard time pre-ordering my iPhone 4 yesterday. Luckily I did get it before they sold out. I'm so excited to get it and I can hardly wait for next Thursday! AHH. I really can't believe that they sold out in ONE day. I guess I can't really talk because I love my iPhone and I was just as eager as everyone else in ordering a new one! :)

In other news, I got an email from TRAM with the results of my personality assessment. I did "well", if you can do "well" on that. I mean it just describes me pretty well. But the recruiter said that I did well on the assessment, so I'm not sure what that means. He also let me know that I am one of two final canidates for the position. I have a 50/50 chance. (or more depending on if they like me more...?) I'm so nervous about finding out, yet I just wanna know NOW! I don't want to get my hopes up but I sorta feel like they are just because I'm so close, (but still so far away). I guess when I find out I will post... either way.

I'm getting ready to go to Florida. I need to go buy some new clothes. I just don't wanna spend money. I just spent 200 bucks on a new phone. I'm putting my old phone on eBay because they are going for like 160-200 so I could potentially get MOST of my money back. I'll be selling it with original packaging and like 4 cases, so I hope i get at least like 175 out of it. :)

Well I am going to go live life! I hope to have some amazing news to post on here soon! :) Keep your fingers crossed.

So there is only a half an hour before I can pre-order this. I honestly cannot wait till it comes out. I have waited forever for this new iPhone and it's got EVERYTHING. It's gonna be neat. Not only does it have video calling, but it has a bigger battery, a better camera and just everything that I'd ever need. It's expensive, but I honestly can't think of anything else I'd rather spend my money on! So I can't wait.

Other news: Had my second interview with TRAM today. Had to take a circuits test and work with an oscilloscope. It was fun and I feel that I did well. After that I had to do a personality assessment. It took a long time but wasn't hard or anything. I am REALLY hoping that they offer me the job. I'm trying not to get my hopes up or anything because I don't wanna be crushed if they don't offer me the job, but then again I feel good about this! They told me that they were very impressed with me. I really just wanted to say "if you're so impressed, then please offer me this job." But for all I know they could have said that to everyone.

My family is leaving for Florida a week from Friday. I am super excited to go. I'm also a little nervous because I've never been on an airplane. It's gonna be quite the experience. Hopefully my almost translucent skin doesn't turn into cancer on the spot in Florida. I'm taking SPF80000 with me so that I don't burn. Sun Burn has always been something that totally ruins my vacations and I DON'T want it to this time. I'm very excited. The resort that we are staying at is amazing and I can't even believe that we are staying there. I can't wait to take pictures and update about the amazing time that we are having.

Well I am going to go wait for midnight so that I can order my iphone! :) I can't wait.

Well I guess I should update you with my progress in my job search. Last I wrote I think I had told you about my actual interview with TRAM. It went well and I felt confident about it. I learned more about the position and the company and it made me even more interested in the position. At the end of the interview I was told that I would be contacted either way in 1 to 2 weeks.

2 weeks go by and I hear nothing. I figured I'd give it the WHOLE two weeks before I attempt to contact them myself. So yesterday I was getting ready to sit down and make the dreaded phone call. I figured since I hadn't been contacted early, I probably didn't make the cut and was probably in for some bad news upon getting a hold of the recruiter.

So I was laying in bed at 8:45 trying to figure out what I was going to say when I called. Then my phone started buzzing and I looked at it. It was TRAM. I let it go to voice-mail because I was sure that I probably would have sounded like I had just woken up if I would have answered it and I didn't want to sound like an idiot. I waited for the voice-mail to come through. I was so nervous to listen to it, but I figured what the heck I need to get it over with.

The voice-mail said that they were interested in me coming in for a second interview. !! I was excited. I know it's not a job offer, but it felt very good to be called back. I called the recruiter and we set up an interview on Monday the 14th at 3pm. He told me that the interview wouldn't be as formal as the first one and most of it will entail doing an assessment on the computer. I don't know if this mean good things or if it's just another part of the process and all the other people that they have been interviewing are doing it as well... I don't know.

So now I am nervous and trying to prepare myself for the interview. I have no idea what they will be asking me and I have no clue if this will be a technical interview or not. I am just really hoping that at the end of this they will see that I am qualified and very willing to learn anything that I need to know to do well in the position. I really want this job. It sounds interesting and I think that I could learn a LOT from this job.

Keep your fingers crossed for me! :)

-JRA

So over the past 2 days I have redone this entire blog. I like the looks of it much better than the old template that I just downloaded. This one I actually sat down, used Photoshop and wrote up an entire CSS and HTML layout. It made me feel accomplished. But now that it's done I really want to do another. I should work on the puppy website for my mom, but it just needs SO much work because I did the whole thing when I had no idea how to use CSS or even really HTML for that matter. I suppose tomorrow I will start on that.

Nothing really has happened today. Pretty boring. Nothing really happened yesterday either. I'm really starting to think that I didn't get the job and that I should start looking else where. I guess going to Grad School is really something that I should be doing... I suppose this was my sign.

I'm scared for grad school though. I mean I don't know if I'll have enough Computer Science background to jump into graduate work. I am going to take at least a semester to get the background classes taken before I jump into the graduate work. We'll see how that goes.

iPhone 4 was announced today. Of course I want one. It is beautiful and wow, so many new functions. Honestly it's like my dreams from when I was about 8 or 9 have come true. I always wanted something like an iPhone when I was little ... a little screen that did everything. Back then however, there was no such thing as an iPhone, but I wanted one. That's why I went into electrical engineering.

-JRA

Of course I can't sleep tonight. Tomorrow I actually have to be up in the morning so of course tonight is the night that sleep will NEVER find me.

I think I have a problem. I haven't slept in like 3 days... I can't figure out what I want in life and I feel like I'm going to puke.

Possibly this is all happening because life is moving too fast and I'm moving too slow. I sit around waiting for something, no idea what I'm waiting for, but I am. I feel like a slob because I do nothing. My parents leave for work like 20 minutes after I finally turn in for the night, and I wake up minutes before they come home pretending that I've been up all day doing something. I sort of feel like they see through that. It's probably just my guilty concise.

I'm just confused. I feel like my life is splitting. I guess splitting is the best word to describe it. I am desperately missing Ann Arbor. I miss my friends and I miss engineering. But then part of me is longing for my "old" friends and waiting to fit in here in Flint. Become one of "those" people who think Flint is alright and has tons of friends and fun here. I honestly don't feel like I belong anywhere right now. All my "old" friends have new friends. All of my friends have moved to every corner of the United States and I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that probably will never see some of them again.

I really just want to feel content and not like everyone is looking at me and thinking the same thing. I feel like everyone is thinking... gosh what waste. Went to 4 years of college, got a decent degree and now nothing. I know it's ONLY been a month.. a MONTH is forever in my life. I should have had something lined up for me, but I didn't because ... well I really don't know why. I don't know what's so wrong with me that I can't find a decent job.


Please tell me what to do with my life, I have run out of answers.

Well I am still waiting on some news from TRAM. They told me 2 weeks, but I was really hoping to hear sooner. I guess I will just keep on waiting.

I don't want to get my hopes up because if I don't get the job, it will just make it harder to keep the job search going without feeling totally discouraged. But then again I do want to be hopeful and excited about it because I do have a chance at getting the job. Getting the job would just be perfect right now. Tony and I could move back to Ann Arbor and we could get started on the life we want to spend together.

On Friday Tony has his formal interview with Flint Fire Department. I am PRAYING that he gets this job (maybe even a little more than I am praying that I get my job). He told me last night that if he gets the job then "We should start planning out wedding." It was so cute. I love him and I'm super excited for our wedding (even though it's more than a year away).

Right now I am hanging out at home waiting for the Comcast person to get here to service the cable DVR box. It doesn't work. Sad day. This person was supposed to be here at 12... it's going on one and they still aren't here. I guess I don't really have any reason to complain because I doubt that I would have been doing anything else today... Such is life.

No plans for tonight... I really want to start on a blog template for this blog... or maybe a new one.. haven't decided if I want to close this chapter yet; I still feel like I belong in the "college student blog" that I've made these past few years. Perhaps if I get the job then I will start a new "real world Jordan" blog. I have no idea.

Well that is it for now.
-JRA
Oh, if you read this, please follow my blog.. I feel lonely out here in blog world.

I feel like summer if officially here. I think that Memorial Day has always signified summer to me, that and Home Town Days. Home Town Days is next weekend and I can already feel the Swartz Creek High School Class of 06 Reunion that will go on next weekend! HaHa. As much as I say that I will hate it, I am looking forward to it a little.

My weekend was nice. It was hot all weekend. Tony had the whole weekend off. We watched a lot of movies, ate ice cream, laughed and rode around on my grandma's golf cart. SUMMER!

I should update you with the happenings of my life since graduation I suppose. Nothing had really happened. Just went out with my friends quite a few times, spent time with Tony, programmed, attempted to start a blog template, and played the Sims 3. Soooo not productive. In the middle of all this I have applied for about 019383810 jobs.

Surprisingly one day after shopping at Target (well actually just wandering around at Target) I got a phone call from a recruiter at TRAM, Inc. I called them back and he set up a phone interview for me the next day. Phone interviews make me ill.

Anyway I had the phone interview and things seemed like they went nicely. He told me he'd get back to me within the next week. So a week goes by and nothing. Then 2 days after a week I get another phone call from them. The HR person asks me if I would be available for a face to face interview the next day at 3 pm. Of course I accepted.

Next day I drive myself down to Plymouth, MI and have a face to face interview with 4 people. It seemed like it went well, however I haven't heard anything. The HR person said that he would get back with me either way in a week to 2 weeks. Tomorrow it will have been a week. Anticipation is killing me. I really do want the job, but I don't want to get my hopes up like I have so many times before, so I'm just sort of trying to keep it out of my mind. It's crazy.

If I do end up getting the job(fingers crossed) Tony and I are going to move back down to Ann Arbor. It all just seems too perfect and that's why I'm worried about it. I mean to move back to Ann Arbor would be my dream. I love that city more than I ever thought I would and I would LOVE to live there. I intend to, but I never imagined that it would be so sudden. (PRAYING it will be sudden).

Over all though, life has been very relaxing. I really am enjoying my summer and it's not turning out as "horrid" as I thought moving home would be. The only weird part is I feel as if I have jumped back to like 10th grade. So weird.

-JRA

Gosh, It's been a while again.

Time is flying by. I'm not okay with it right now. Currently I am unemployed, job searching, desperately trying to finish up this semester, graduating, and feeling so confused about life.

I had an interview with Verizon Wireless yesterday for their new grad engineering rotational program. I am trying not to get my hopes up, but I REALLY want the job. I mean at this point I'll take whatever offer I can get, but this job sounds really cool. It starts in Southfield, MI and then depending on where your rotation takes you, you end up moving like 3 time in 3 years to awesome cities in the Midwest. At the end you get to pick the one that was most enjoyable to you and work there. How awesome, right? Well let me tell you about some of the benifits. You obviously get a free phone and all that. They also give you a company car. You get 2000 bucks every rotation to help offset moving costs. And of course full medical dental vision and 10 day paid vacation from day one. So of course I want this job.

Now I just have to be patient and hope that I make it to the next round of interviews. Ah it's crazy. I would love it. But I don't want to get my hopes up. I really don't because I did that with Stryker and was sad when they didn't cut me an offer.

So the waiting game starts. Wish me luck.


- Posted using my iPhone JRA

I am sitting in the basement of the Michigan League right now trying to get my reading done for my American Culture class. I really haven't been down here since the first semester of my sophomore year of college. It's been bringing back weird memories. All I can feel is the way I used to feel coming down here between my math and physics classes. I would come here, get some lunch and then sit and feel really lonely. It makes me remember how insecure I was being by myself and not surrounded by a group of people. I always felt like everyone was looking at me because I was by myself eating and trying to get reading done for some class.

I came home to Swartz Creek for my last spring break on Saturday afternoon. I had planned on being home Friday night, but the weather was bad and Tony and I decided on saying in Ann Arbor. Luckily the weather was better Saturday and we made it to Swartz Creek all in one piece.

Since Saturday (actually probably since like Thursday evening) I've been sick. It is horrible. I have some sort of head cold and it's really knocked me out. Yesterday I didn't even get out of my pajamas. It was nice to have an entire day to sleep/watch TV. Weird thing is my mom has the same thing (not from me either). We spend the day laying around in pj's watching TV and sewing these little stuffed birds that she's going to use for something.

Tony had clinical's all day yesterday so he was working at the hospital. He called when he got out and said that he'd come over and see me later. After about 3 hours of waiting on him I decided I'd call and figure out what was going on. Turns out he fell asleep at his parents house and was feeling horrible. I felt bad because I'm sure I gave him this cold. So I told him to say there and sleep. Being sick is no fun.

Now it's Monday and I have less than a week of spring break left. I am feeling better. Still not 100 percent, but better than I was yesterday. I have no plans for today but I'd really like to get my blog back together so it doesn't look so blah, and catch up my written journal and start to figure out some plans for the rest of my spring break. It should be fun, hopefully.

I suppose I will write later. I need to get some photography done over this break too because it will never get done once I go back to school and get back into the swing of things.

-JRA

Ann Arbor got so much snow yesterday! It's so pretty! I really do love the snow and I don't know how I'd live in a place that gets no snow. I honestly think that I would miss it. I really enjoy the seasons so that is why I am desperately looking for a job in Michigan. I don't want to move. I'm too much of a homebody. I mean I would LOVE to travel, but I like to come home, and home to me is Michigan. I would, however, really enjoy living on a Michigan coast, or near a lake. I love the water and there is NOTHING that can compare to a Michigan summer on the Lake.

Not much has changed. I am still working away at homework and watching too much TV. So life has been slow, but extremely fast at the same time (if that is at all logical?)

I've been feeling a lot better these days. But of course that is probably because I've been mostly a homebody and haven't ridden in a car for an extended amount of time. And when I start to feel anxiety coming on I have the power to stop it. But it's really a vicious cycle. Once I start to think about it not being there it shows up and when it shows up I try my hardest to pretend it's not there, and do something else with my mind. And then I start to think if it's there or not.. OMG CRAZY.... I haven't really thought about it all day today and today was GREAT! I think this might be getting better.

So I really do not want to write about this because I don't want to admit that it could and probably is true. I think I have anxiety. It all started in December when I came down with the stomach flu. It was gross and I got sick and what not and thought by the next morning that everything would be fine. I was also a little panicked because I had a HUGE report due in the morning and "didn't have time to be sick". So I made it to class and still felt really sick. I didn't get sick in public but I worried about it a lot.

For days after being sick all I could do when I was in public places was worry about getting sick. Constantly I would plan out what I would do if I were to have to get sick. I would scope out where bathrooms were and I would, in general, go crazy.

As finals came around and as all my project were due, it went away. I was so focused on getting everything done and getting home for winter break that I really didn't have much time to sit around and plan ways of running to the bathroom and discreetly hiding my sickness. So since I wasn't thinking about it, I thought I had gotten over whatever it was that was making me so nauseous for days. Since I wasn't I forgot about the whole ordeal and got over it.

Came home for winter break and for the most part everything was fine. About a week before I had to go back to Ann Arbor I started feeling sick again. I thought I was sick, I wasn't sure what was wrong with me because I didn't have a fever and felt find except I was extremely nauseous. And I had started to notice it was when was in a public place where getting sick would be inconvenient or embarrassing. As soon and I got home I felt perfectly fine. I really had no idea what was wrong with me. It happened as soon as I got in the car and lasted till I made it home feeling like I was going to puke the whole way and being nervous about puking and just really going crazy.

Classes started and my nausea didn't go away. I almost felt like I couldn't make it through my classes because I was going to get sick. I would try to block it out of my head but that just made it worse. I was constantly thinking about it and it wouldn't go away. It was becoming so bad that on the weekends I would not want to go shopping or go out with Tony because I was scared I was going to get sick. I couldn't even stay at the library to do homework, even when I was sitting at the computers next to the bathroom.

It was/is starting to take over my life. I cannot for the life of me break this horrible habit. I just want to be normal again. I have no idea what started this. I don't HATE puking like I'm not scared of it so I don't think it's a phobia or something. I honestly do not know why I feel like this all the time when I got in public. It gets worse when I know that I'm not going to have to be some place for a long time where it is impossible for me to get to a bathroom. Example: Last night I came home from Ann Arbor. It's only a 40 minute car ride, but it felt like the end of the world because I thought I was going to have to pull over the entire time to puke. It never happened and as soon as I pulled up to my parents house I felt 100 percent better. I think I need help.

I was searching on line last night desperately for some clues as to what is going on with me. I found this forum that described me to a T. I really felt like I had written the posts on there. Every single person had the exact same symptoms as me. And all of them had since been diagnosed with a case of anxiety. And a few had given extensive details about what they had done to "cure" themselves because they didn't want to go on some anti-anxiety meds.

So I have come to the conclusion that I have anxiety. I'm pretty sure that deep down its because I'm graduating this semester. I think that's why it has been progressively getting worse as graduation grows closer. I'm so nervous about starting my real life and having no idea what I'm going to do. Since I'm worrying about that 24/7 my brain has made efforts to take my mind off from that subject by making me sick. It makes me think about something else (WAY TOO MUCH!). I almost feel better knowing that I'm really sick. I was starting to think I could have some disease.

Many of the posts said that I need to start to do something that I can focus on. Something like training for a race, swimming a bunch of laps or something that will take my mind off from the events that "make me sick". Also when I start to get the feeling that I'm going to be anxious I need to take a deep breath and tell myself that there is nothing wrong and that I'm going to be perfectly fine and I'm not going to puke. This all in my head and I'm not going to go crazy over it.

I feel better for getting this out of me. Perhaps I can start to feel like a normal person again. I'm still worried to death about finding a job before graduation, but I've realized that the world is not going to end if I have to move home with my parents for a little bit before I can figure out what I'm going to do.

Thanks.