Post Grad

Ann Arbor is this place where everything is practically perfect. When I am in Ann Arbor I feel free and in total control of my life. That's where I want to be all the time and it seems like being in Swartz Creek for the summer has made this more and more evident that I don't belong here. I don't feel like me when I'm here, and really all that is here is my family and Tony. I don't mind coming home to visit, but living here is not something that I can stand for very long.

I keep telling myself its only 3 more months. But three months is quite a long time. Its a long time when daily you have to go into McDonalds and work. Its a long time when all you can dream about is all the fun you've ever had in Ann Arbor. Its along time when you have to live with your parents and they won't let you have the freedom that you do when you are on your own. I guess I just have to keep my head above the surface and breathe. It will be over soon and I will be back in my home and back to doing my own thing.

I hope that this year is better than last year. I have to do better in all of my classes and I am taking quite the load this semester. 18 credits, 3 EECS classes, a 400 level math class and... sick, i don't know if I will be able to keep up with all of it, but I'm going to have to. Its scary.

I sorta feel old these days. I was down in Ann Arbor with my friends last night. We were planning on having an awesome night, but we just sat around and watched the rain. I feel like in the last like almost 2 years we've gotten so old. It also kind of hit me when we were in Cedar Point and our bodies hurt after every thrill ride we went on. I guess i'm not 16 anymore and I am not invinciable. I am just, well, getting old. I mean I'm only 20 years old so I'm not really old, but I'm feeling myself get older before I really want to even be older. Weird.

I have to go to McDonalds in a hour and a half... and I have to stay there for six hours. I don't know if i can do it. It makes me sort of want to puke. Its boring and hot. There is almost never working air in the building. I was informed the other day that our air conditioning system is controlled by a place outside of the store. Is that weird to you? Is your home air system controlled by some one else? Some place where you can't just go change it your self? Is it controlled by a place that never picks up its phone? yeah well Your house isn't called McDonalds and you are not a crazy person.

I am gonna go. good Bye.