Well here it is, the last day of 2008. I'm not sure whether I care if this year leaves. With other years, especially in high school, I was a little sad when years were over because it meant I was racing toward becoming and adult and ultimately it was because I knew come 2006 my life would HAVE to change whether I wanted it to or not. Now when years pass I'm almost excited because that means I'm SOO much closer to graduating college. College isn't like high school at all. I suppose that's an obvious statement. I really used to think that college would eventually start to resemble high school, with the friends, the nights out and just life in general, but it hasn't happened yet and I doubt that next year it will.
I'm old now. I have friends, but hardly ever see them because I'm too busy with homework and studying and just school ALWAYS. The only nights I really "hang out" is when Tony comes down and that's if we feel like going out because we are both so completely tired from the work week. Its hard.
I wonder once I graduate and get a real job if life will ever settle back down. I hope that the rest of it is nothing like this. If it is I'm sure to die young because of the extreme stress I endure every day. Its so hard being a student AND wanting to have a social life. Not that you CAN'T do it, you can, but you have to give up "me" time and sleep for the most part. Those are two things that I REALLY like so my social life isn't as big as others, and some people might think I'm lame because of that, but I don't really care.
That's another thing about college, I don't care anymore. I don't care if people think I'm lame because I spend my Friday nights catching up on sleep and all the reading I put off for the week. I get my shit done so that on the weekend I can just chill and have some down time. I don't care if someone doesn't like the clothes I'm wearing. I'm not here to impress anyone. All I honestly care about is my grades, and those are very hard to keep impressive. haha ;)
So good bye 2008. You've been a good year, but I'm happy to let you go.
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