So I am beyond nervous for the career fair. I don't even know why either. Its like do or die time. I feel like if I don't get a job in the next 2 months, I'll never get a job. While I understand this is NOT true, it doesn't make me any less nervous about the whole getting hired process. I just want someone to see me and say here's a job. I know this is NEVER EVER EVER going to happen, but I wish it would. Honestly I don't even know what company I want to work for, or really even what kind of Electrical Engineering work I want to do coming out of college. I suppose I don't really care. Even if it is not something that I want to do for the rest of my life, its a first job. I've been told that I might not necessarily LOVE my first job, but I really want to somewhat enjoy it. I just want this all to be over. I just want to KNOW what I'm going to be doing come May. I wish I could just know that one piece of future information.
These past few days I've been reading some of my middle school journals that surfaced in my move. WOW. I was so funny back then. It honestly cracks me up. Not only were my writing skills lacking, I was boy crazy and thought that any boy that would give me the time of day was the boy I was going to spend the rest of my life with. Granted that Tony and I DID meet in 7th grade, you'll be surprised to know that he wasn't one of the many boys that I thought I was going to marry! Its so funny to think back about those times. It honestly is like watching a very corny TV show. Sort of sad that my life reminds me of some knock off teenage drama show, but then again I think a lot of people would feel the same way if they were as strange as I was as a teenageer to keep a journal of EVERY SINGLE day of my life since the last day of 6th grade. I'm really happy I did it. However I really wish i would have kept up with it in High school. I feel like my high school thoughts were a little more mature and well I feel like I grew up a TON from around 11th grade(mayish) until the day I graduated. I really wish I could read that transition. Its so fun to read. I'll have to put an exert in here one of these days.
School is taking off like a jet. Honestly it feels so slow and I don't really have any homework or reading to do, but I knew in like a week its going to start to PILE on. I hate that feeling, knowing that things are going to get exponentially harder in a very very very short time. Yet there's not a thing I can do to prepare. I just have to let it all happen when it happens. :( most of my classes are so awkward. like my EECS 452 class(Senior Digital Signal Processing Lab) is just so weird. We go to lecture which is held 3 times a week to listen to the professor read directly from her slides about the specifications of the hardware we are using in lab. Its like no one in that class has ever heard of a data sheet or an operation manual. And I don't think they know how to read. Its sad and I hate going, but its my Senior Design, I have to prove myself (to myself).
Other than that, weekends have been super fun. Its awesome that Tony and I both have season tickets this year. So much fun! Tomorrow the game is against Eastern Michigan so we should have a good game. And its supposed to be pretty nice outside so that will help. Last week it was super hot and it made me sick feeling. Plus i was so tired from standing up the entire time. So now that its not going to be as hot, maybe I won't feel so tired. The sun really wears me out.
I am going to go do the dishes and organize the apartment. Its a mess right now.
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