Well I guess I should update you with my progress in my job search. Last I wrote I think I had told you about my actual interview with TRAM. It went well and I felt confident about it. I learned more about the position and the company and it made me even more interested in the position. At the end of the interview I was told that I would be contacted either way in 1 to 2 weeks.
2 weeks go by and I hear nothing. I figured I'd give it the WHOLE two weeks before I attempt to contact them myself. So yesterday I was getting ready to sit down and make the dreaded phone call. I figured since I hadn't been contacted early, I probably didn't make the cut and was probably in for some bad news upon getting a hold of the recruiter.
So I was laying in bed at 8:45 trying to figure out what I was going to say when I called. Then my phone started buzzing and I looked at it. It was TRAM. I let it go to voice-mail because I was sure that I probably would have sounded like I had just woken up if I would have answered it and I didn't want to sound like an idiot. I waited for the voice-mail to come through. I was so nervous to listen to it, but I figured what the heck I need to get it over with.
The voice-mail said that they were interested in me coming in for a second interview. !! I was excited. I know it's not a job offer, but it felt very good to be called back. I called the recruiter and we set up an interview on Monday the 14th at 3pm. He told me that the interview wouldn't be as formal as the first one and most of it will entail doing an assessment on the computer. I don't know if this mean good things or if it's just another part of the process and all the other people that they have been interviewing are doing it as well... I don't know.
So now I am nervous and trying to prepare myself for the interview. I have no idea what they will be asking me and I have no clue if this will be a technical interview or not. I am just really hoping that at the end of this they will see that I am qualified and very willing to learn anything that I need to know to do well in the position. I really want this job. It sounds interesting and I think that I could learn a LOT from this job.
Keep your fingers crossed for me! :)
-JRA
So over the past 2 days I have redone this entire blog. I like the looks of it much better than the old template that I just downloaded. This one I actually sat down, used Photoshop and wrote up an entire CSS and HTML layout. It made me feel accomplished. But now that it's done I really want to do another. I should work on the puppy website for my mom, but it just needs SO much work because I did the whole thing when I had no idea how to use CSS or even really HTML for that matter. I suppose tomorrow I will start on that.
Nothing really has happened today. Pretty boring. Nothing really happened yesterday either. I'm really starting to think that I didn't get the job and that I should start looking else where. I guess going to Grad School is really something that I should be doing... I suppose this was my sign.
I'm scared for grad school though. I mean I don't know if I'll have enough Computer Science background to jump into graduate work. I am going to take at least a semester to get the background classes taken before I jump into the graduate work. We'll see how that goes.
iPhone 4 was announced today. Of course I want one. It is beautiful and wow, so many new functions. Honestly it's like my dreams from when I was about 8 or 9 have come true. I always wanted something like an iPhone when I was little ... a little screen that did everything. Back then however, there was no such thing as an iPhone, but I wanted one. That's why I went into electrical engineering.
-JRA
Of course I can't sleep tonight. Tomorrow I actually have to be up in the morning so of course tonight is the night that sleep will NEVER find me.
I think I have a problem. I haven't slept in like 3 days... I can't figure out what I want in life and I feel like I'm going to puke.
Possibly this is all happening because life is moving too fast and I'm moving too slow. I sit around waiting for something, no idea what I'm waiting for, but I am. I feel like a slob because I do nothing. My parents leave for work like 20 minutes after I finally turn in for the night, and I wake up minutes before they come home pretending that I've been up all day doing something. I sort of feel like they see through that. It's probably just my guilty concise.
I'm just confused. I feel like my life is splitting. I guess splitting is the best word to describe it. I am desperately missing Ann Arbor. I miss my friends and I miss engineering. But then part of me is longing for my "old" friends and waiting to fit in here in Flint. Become one of "those" people who think Flint is alright and has tons of friends and fun here. I honestly don't feel like I belong anywhere right now. All my "old" friends have new friends. All of my friends have moved to every corner of the United States and I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that probably will never see some of them again.
I really just want to feel content and not like everyone is looking at me and thinking the same thing. I feel like everyone is thinking... gosh what waste. Went to 4 years of college, got a decent degree and now nothing. I know it's ONLY been a month.. a MONTH is forever in my life. I should have had something lined up for me, but I didn't because ... well I really don't know why. I don't know what's so wrong with me that I can't find a decent job.
Please tell me what to do with my life, I have run out of answers.
