It's almost over. I have around 19 more days of school. I almost can't take it. This time of the year is the hardest by far. I have so much to do and no time to do it. Not only do I not have time, I also just don't have the drive to get my work done. That's the bad thing though. In turn for not doing my work at top quality I get not so top quality grades which in the long run will probably end up placing me in a "not so quality" engineering firm or something. Who knows.
These days I don't care much anymore. As long as I get a job that pays well and I don't have to worry constantly about money, I don't care. I don't really mind not inventing something super cutting edge or something that will change the world. My former self did. I wanted so bad to do something big, but I really don't see that its worth all the pain and suffering any more. To become that person that had a 4.0 and an awesome job, I would have to sacrifice everything. My friends, my family and my boyfriend. I know some people who are the perfect description of the 4.0 student. They have no friends, the stay up for days studying and doing homework and ... well lets face it, they have no life.
I guess I'm alright with the fact that instead of A's in all my classes I get B's. I suppose that is alright. I mean a B IS better than average, but most companies don't like to think so. I was always told that the world wants well rounded people. People that are no only smart but are able to get along with other. I have come to realize that is not so. If you have the grades, they don't care how you act, if you can talk, or really even what you do what your spare time. All they care is that you can get the work done for them, fast, cheap and efficiently. I guess I'm not cut out for that, but I'm sure out in the world someplace there is a company that wants someone like me. I suppose that it's just my task to seek it out.
-JRA
My brain is fried. Spring break starts tomorrow. Thank goodness. I still have a ton of stuff I have to get done over the next week so really i shouldn't be calling it a break and I should be that excited about it. But it will be nice however to have all the time during the days to get some work done and not have to worry about going to class and getting assignments done. I"m happy about that. Plus I"ll be home for a little while and that will be alright. I really need to find some employment for the summer, but it might be a little early in the semester.
I am pretty sure that I will not pass eecs280. I have no idea how to program and I feel like there is no explaination in class, which sucks. I feel like more than half of that class already knows how to program and so the teacher just expects that everyone else does too. i hate that class more than anything in the world. ug. and i have this huge monoploy project due pretty much the day i get back from spring break and that same week i have an exam in that class. Thank you 280 for ruining my spring break before it even started. whatever i have a week to get my ass in shape in that class pretty much.
Also i'd like to reorginize all of my notes for 216 and that that under control.
Ug its going to be a long break.
But i have to survive the rest of today(lab tonight) and tomorrow(campus day) with out killing anybody(including me). then i will be home and ready to get some major work done.
I will write later.
-jra
So another day of complaints about everything in the world. i don't know how much more of this can take. Everything is something to complain about. I really just want to look at her and say WHO CARES! The other day it was about a grade she got on a TECHNICAL writing paper; she started it off with hi. NO REASON to complain about a low grade on a tech paper when you start it out with hi. its supposed to be at least a little bit formal.
whatever I'm totally over the complaints. Its really bothering me. REALLY!
But I suppose I do my fair share of complaining, heck I'm doing it right now, but I don't feel the need as she does to express it to everyone vocally! Its driving me up the walls.
I'm in a rut right now about Engineering. Part of me wants it, the other part doesn't and test scores are proving to me that it is hard i need to study and putting off homework and procrastination does nothing. I hate this. I really have no drive for school right now and I'm so burnt out. All i really want is to get married and settle down. But i realize for that to at all be pleasurable I have to make it through college with some sort of degree, even if I'm the last in my class(which i doubt). I really just want these next two years of school to sort of fly by. And I need to find some technical work this summer. SUCK ASS
My life is looking less and less fun every day that I wake up.
Speaking of things to do.. I have quite the list going.
1. start/finish my 280 project.
2. understand my mistakes on 216 exam.(i suck!)
3. get my prelab(216) done and done well.
4. finish math homework.
5. have some me time.
6. hang out with sister and friend this weekend.
and i'm sure i could go on and on, but I don't want to because I don't want to realize just how much i really have to do.
well I will write again when the feeling calls.
jra
