Graduation

So I applied for graduation a few days ago. I'm getting all nervous already. I don't know what I am going to do after I graduate. I have NO idea. I don't know what kind of job I want. I have no idea where I want to live... I don't want to have to move home, but some days it really seems like that might be happening. I just wish I knew. I envy the people who know exactly what they are doing in a few short months. I just keep praying that some kind of job comes along for me. So at least that I can feel alright about.


I have just been walking around campus this past week realizing everything that I'm going to miss. I mean I'm going to miss Ann Arbor in general, but there are things that even staying in the City of Ann Arbor couldn't offer me after I graduate. The other night I was at the library studying and doing homework when I started to realize that I won't have to do this much longer. It was an exciting feeling, but all at the same time I felt like I was really going to miss it. It was so quiet and warm and perfect. At that moment, I loved the Duderstadt. When I graduate I won't have to go back there, I won't have to spend evenings staring blankly at homework hoping that if i sit there for 2 more hours I will just figure it out.

I have no idea what life after college will bring me. I'm so scared of it too. I wish someone would tell me what is going to happen with my life, but right now I guess I'm going to make the best of what I have left here at the University of Michigan. I will prepare myself for the good bye in May and I will hopefully prepare myself for everything to come.

I need to keep telling myself that I am ONLY 22 years old. I still have a LOT of life a head of me and a LOT of experiences to go through. This transition to the "real world" is just one of them. I don't know why I take life so seriously all the time and feel like everything is "the end of the world", life is MINE and I should do what makes me feel good and happy. Sad thing is, I don't know what that is? I just don't want to have to struggle through the the few months after college.

I guess I will keep you updated on my life and where it's going.

I'm just really going to miss the University of Michigan. These have really been the best years of my life (this far of course) and I guess I'm happy and sad to put them behind me.

-JRA


iPhone

So if you do not know me then I will inform you that I love technology. I also hate it. Technology, specifically electonics, causes me to do things that are stupid. I got an iPhone for my 21st birthday. It was part gift to myself and partly breaking the last tie my parents had over me. It made me grow up. So that was all great. I loved, and still love, this phone. However I tend to get bored easily with electronics so about a year after getting the "best" phone I was convinced that I needed a blackberry. I was in luck however because AT&T was running a deal on black Friday. If I updated my plan I could have a new blackberry for free. And that is exactly what I did

At first I loved that phone too. After a few months of using it I decided I still loved my iPhone. So this last weekend I switched back to my iPhone. I don't get it.

This event closly mirrors my life however. I am never content. As they say the grass is greener on the other side. And when I do get to that other side it seems like it's even greener where I came from. I hope I grow out of this soon. I can just imagine my future if it doesn't. I'll never be able to live some place for more than 2 years and I will surely have to lease cars because there is no way I could be happy with that one car.

I believe this is my new years resolution. Stop this behavior. Hopefully it is something I can quit. It's ruling my actions and I hate it

Oh expect more updates cause there's an app for that now. YES!!


- Posted using my iPhone JRA


Michigan game with my dad this morning was a lot of fun. My dad came down at like 9am. We left by 9:30 and headed down to the stadium. It was a noon game. We sat further up than my real seats because it was easier to see that way. My seats are sweet cause the are row 2, but it is sort of hard to see for me because I am so short and there are TALL people in front of me. :( Michigan ended up losing. Sad.

After the game I went to Swartz Creek with my dad. It was nice to see my family. Hung out with the dogs and talked with my mom. I am getting nervous for my Stryker interview next Friday. I just really hope that I get the job. I don't really know what to expect?

Well I am going to hang out with my family and have some dinner.
-JRA